But when I finished, the piece had done what I thought was impossible: it awakened some empathy for him.
In a 2015 text message, more than a year after the car crash that made him a paraplegic, Cawthorn told Brad Ledford, who had been driving, that
Cawthorn, right, and Brad Ledford, on spring break before the accident.
“I miss my life,” he said. “I miss being able to defend myself … being able to dress myself … being able to use the bathroom without someone helping me … I miss not peeing the bed because I have no control over my penis … not having to have pills keep me alive … being able to compete … being checked out by girls … I miss my pride as a man … the pride my father swelled with when he spoke my name … I miss,” he said, “not having to convince myself every day not to pull the trigger and end it all.”
Cawthorn has sued Ledford’s father and his father’s company. His deposition included more searing detail:
“Can you give me,” asked the attorney for Ledford’s father’s company, “a list of 10 things that you enjoyed doing before that you can’t do now?”
A excerpt from Cawthorn’s lawsuit deposition.
“Yes, sir,” said Cawthorn. “I can’t work out. I can’t play football. I can’t stand up and pee. I can’t wake up in the morning by myself. I’ll probably never be able to procreate. I can’t run. I can’t jump. I can’t wrestle with my brother. I can’t get through the day without pain. I can’t wake up in the morning without forgetting I’m paralyzed and also falling out of my bed. I can’t be too far away from my doctors. I can’t climb anything. I can’t go adventuring in places. I can’t hike. I can’t ride horses. I can’t bail hay. Do you want me to continue?”
“You said you can’t procreate,” the lawyer continued. “How do you know that?”
“Just because I can’t.”
“Who has told you?”
“My urologist.”
“That will never change?”
“Everyone is always hopeful, but, I mean, with my injury, it’s unlikely that I’ll walk or procreate or, you know, recover.”
But he “recovered” enough to take a job with then-Congressman Mark Meadows, and when Meadows resigned to become Donald Trump’s chief of staff, Cawthorn ran for and won the seat from his wheelchair.
In the campaign, he projected an inspiring “comeback from horrible trauma” image, and pledged to be a constructive, conservative-but-ready-to-cross-the-aisle Member of the House.
But three days after he was sworn in, on January 6, 2021 Cawthorn spoke, at the “Save America” rally at the Ellipse. He was one of the speakers who riled up the crowd, many of whom later assaulted the Capitol.
“My friends,” he said, “I want you to chant with me so loud that the cowards I serve with in Washington, D.C., can hear you.”
During the storming of the Capitol, he called into the radio show of right-wing talker Charlie Kirk and said he believed some of the ransacking mob were “antifa” and “people paid by the Democratic machine.”
It was all an increasingly erratic, two-year downhill roll from there, capped by recent photos of him in women’s lingerie during a cruise, talk of orgies and cocaine among his colleagues echoing in his wake, and culminating in the primary defeat on May 17 by state senator Chuck Edwards.
The change won’t much alter the political character of the deep-red western North Carolina district. Edwards, now the heavy favorite for November, is reliably Trumpy, if more quietly so.
But maybe now, the exit door from the House could open a way for Madison Cawthorn to put his life back together, out of the limelight, with some semblance of constructive hope.
The Kruse profile describes how Cawthorn made serious efforts at physical rehabilitation and overcoming the loss of direction and depression that survivors of such accident survivors often face.
He was on a tough road. Yet research studies have shown that many do manage to overcome the despair and find a new sense of purpose and even happiness.
Clearly, Cawthorn’s recovery was derailed by the lures, klieg lights and arrogant loopiness of the Trump world he was sucked into.
Now, as I said, when the result was clear last night, I felt empathic hope: Cawthorn had won –won a chance to have a real second chance.
It won’t be easy, quick, or guaranteed. But I hope he takes it.
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Cawthorn reminds me of another flamboyant MAGA enfant terrible, that fellow named Milo Yannopoulis, who said and did such stupid things that his handlers had to turn on him. After speaking at CPAC, going on the road for Trump, and securing a fabulous book deal from Random House, Milo went on the Joe Rogan show and basically endorsed grownup men having sex with teenage boys. He thanked the Catholic priest who turned him out at age 14, thanking the fellow for teaching him how to give good head, and made grandiose claims of attending Hollywood sex parties, again, with underage boys. Suddenly, the MAGA world turned on him, and all was canceled, a bridge too far. Today, Milo claims to be a fundamentalist Catholic, ex gay reprogramming advocate, and militant heterosexual despite still living with his lover. Still, he fails to identify the priest who molested him, nor the attendees of said Hollywood sex parties…
Thanks, Trevor. My response was much affected by the Kruse profile. It made clear how broken & messed up Cawthorn has been by his brief time in high-profile Trumpism. I hope he can recover; but I’m not making any predictions.
You have a sunnier view of his chances than I do. I suspect we’ll be seeing him on Fox News soon, either as a presenter or interviewed as an “expert” from a right-wing think tank. That is the usual career path for this sort of failson.
Cawthorn reminds me of another flamboyant MAGA enfant terrible, that fellow named Milo Yannopoulis, who said and did such stupid things that his handlers had to turn on him. After speaking at CPAC, going on the road for Trump, and securing a fabulous book deal from Random House, Milo went on the Joe Rogan show and basically endorsed grownup men having sex with teenage boys. He thanked the Catholic priest who turned him out at age 14, thanking the fellow for teaching him how to give good head, and made grandiose claims of attending Hollywood sex parties, again, with underage boys. Suddenly, the MAGA world turned on him, and all was canceled, a bridge too far. Today, Milo claims to be a fundamentalist Catholic, ex gay reprogramming advocate, and militant heterosexual despite still living with his lover. Still, he fails to identify the priest who molested him, nor the attendees of said Hollywood sex parties…
I hope you’re right Chuck – a very sympathetic post.
Thanks, Trevor. My response was much affected by the Kruse profile. It made clear how broken & messed up Cawthorn has been by his brief time in high-profile Trumpism. I hope he can recover; but I’m not making any predictions.
You have a sunnier view of his chances than I do. I suspect we’ll be seeing him on Fox News soon, either as a presenter or interviewed as an “expert” from a right-wing think tank. That is the usual career path for this sort of failson.
You could be right. I was expressing a hope rather than a prediction . . .